Who would have thought that a cute romantic comedy could bring on such tears, deep emotion, and honest thoughts.
I miss Christopher. Being a military wife is difficult in many ways. And not just how everyone thinks. I think it's different to everyone. It's something that some people grew up being accustomed to and then there are those who marry as HS sweethearts and plans change and the husband joins the Marine Corps. The wife drops everything... education at one of the best colleges doing what she forever dreamed about and moving away from family and friends.
Things can get lonely and you surround yourself with people you hope to be lifelong friends with. People from all corners of the universe and you learn a lot about people... and yourself.
Then, you become closer with your husband and decide you want to start a family. And so begins the life of a stay at home mom.
I love my kids more than anything. I love my husband more today than anytime in the past 11 years we have been together.
But, in all this time, I have struggled to find my pure happiness. I miss so much about the 'simple' life and what could have been. I miss feeling significant. I feel like I'm treading water. Always looking for that change... the motivation... but never finding it.
I do need a change... a push... the motivation. Towards what? I'm not sure. But I need a change.
Tenacity, Kelly. Don't forget.
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