The Proposal

Who would have thought that a cute romantic comedy could bring on such tears, deep emotion, and honest thoughts.

I miss Christopher. Being a military wife is difficult in many ways. And not just how everyone thinks. I think it's different to everyone. It's something that some people grew up being accustomed to and then there are those who marry as HS sweethearts and plans change and the husband joins the Marine Corps. The wife drops everything... education at one of the best colleges doing what she forever dreamed about and moving away from family and friends.

Things can get lonely and you surround yourself with people you hope to be lifelong friends with. People from all corners of the universe and you learn a lot about people... and yourself.

Then, you become closer with your husband and decide you want to start a family. And so begins the life of a stay at home mom.

I love my kids more than anything. I love my husband more today than anytime in the past 11 years we have been together.

But, in all this time, I have struggled to find my pure happiness. I miss so much about the 'simple' life and what could have been. I miss feeling significant. I feel like I'm treading water. Always looking for that change... the motivation... but never finding it.

I do need a change... a push... the motivation. Towards what? I'm not sure. But I need a change.

Tenacity, Kelly. Don't forget.


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Doing this again...

Wow. I can't believe I am doing this again. I'm starting it with a blank slate. I am not buying my own URL name and am not hosting and all that mess. I just don't have time for it anymore. I don't want this to be one of those things that keeps being pushed away, again. I need a release and so I'm starting a blog, again.

I'm excited, but a little nervous. Well, not so much nervous... more anxious. Hoping that the "journaling" aspect of this will really help me. Help me to release more emotion and to journal our daily happenings.

Yep, I hope to be in this one for the long haul. I had my other site for a good 2-3 years? Then I gave birth to my youngest and all of my free time just disappeared. He still manages to take up a lot of my "free time" but I need to learn how to make more time for me. So this it. Here I go.